Letter to Ed about my own experience with a heart condition called Cardio Myopathy or heart muscle degeneration and wherein I provide photographic evidence that emotional release and herbs for holistic healing, did repair, rehabilitate and heal a heart given up on by the medical establishment; The simple things that made the impossible, possible.
Ed, for a long time now I’ve wanted to write about treating the broken heart. As someone who’d suffered so much because of a chronically under-functioning heart, and was told at the age of 19 that I wouldn’t live very long after two heart attacks on the same day, I had to take a serious interest in alternative medicine and natural healing for my heart’s sake, or die.
I wasn’t too enamored by this world, to tell you the truth. I might’ve preferred dying, but God had other plans. You know what they say – Life is what happens to you while you’re busy planning something else.
Ed, people don’t talk enough about how emotions affect actual heart health.
In reality it’s an established fact even in the medical system which generally gives so little respect to treating the human body as an emanation of spirit.
Those links Ed, are as mainstream “information” sources, as they come. Even they who don’t publish one thing without some kind of exploitative agenda or the other, are forced to admit the power of emotion in affecting the physical heart.
I myself Ed, never thought I’d ever develop a heart condition. I’d watch these old movies in which they showed these very old people getting a heart attack when they heard their factory burned down. Stuff like that. Things I never thought would happen in my life.
But circumstances were such that on Christmas Day 2000, I, possibly the most cheerful girl you could ever have met, and famous for being the go to person to get cheered up and encouraged when you’re in a bad time, had two heart attacks or cardiac arrests on the same day.
The picture beneath is me in the heart trouble days at the age of 20. Notice how I’m holding my left shoulder up. I had to almost manually hold my heart up by pushing my left arm against my chest all day – just to keep going, to numb the pain down a bit. That was my normal posture in those years.
I’m sorry about the horrible picture quality. In a fit of rage some years ago I destroyed all my old photographs and only a few I’d taken pics of with a horrible webcam in the early 2000s remain.
I was given zero chance of recovery from the two heart attacks on the same day – Christmas 2000. In the lead up to the heart attack I’d gone 2 years with severe angina pain nearly 24 x 7 and by the time I had the heart attacks I was able to be awake only 4 hours at a time.
You’d wonder how come I didn’t do anything about it those two whole years. I can’t make excuses Ed. I just was so cut off from my own reality and so busy playing Mother Teresa to others and tripping on being such a sacrificing sufferer that I ignored my own condition.
I also had no one who cared for me around watching at the time, who might’ve brought me to my senses. I was at university in Australia then. It was just not done to have heart issues -just not cool. It simply didn’t happen to our age group.
I remember this girl who said she had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and everyone was dying on behalf of her, such sympathy and all. And woah if someone had a surgery like to remove a wisdom tooth or inflamed tonsils – people would be collecting money to send them flowers.
Heart problems and heart attacks… no one on campus knew what those were.
I’ve since come to understand Ed, that the average person who doesn’t have heart problems cannot imagine what it’s like for a person who does have heart problems.
People who live on an emotional frequency and have blocked up sorrow – so big that they cannot let it out and continue to live their normal lives, so big that it would threaten their personality built up with such difficulty over so many years; people who feel they cannot AFFORD to have feelings, because so many others depend on them to do what they do; such people tend to have heart conditions.
It seems unfair Ed, but as time goes by, I’ve realized that the most fair thing in the world is the body protesting a life not acceptable to the spirit.
The falling ill of the body, is the start of the healing of a LIFE. A life whose memories we could carry inside us for eternity.
Enough of the rambling. I have this key word Ed, “Eternity.” When that word shows up in my writing, I know I’m rambling a bit.
Getting back to the topic:
How to heal a broken heart
1) Acknowledge you have a broken heart.
This bit is hell Ed. There’s pride involved. There’s a sense of failure that’s very hard to face. It’s like life itself and all its constructs have to come apart to face that your heart’s broken.
It is perhaps a little easier for those whose hearts got broken the traditional way – you know the whole boy meets girl story.
It’s when it isn’t the traditional broken heart narrative that things get rocky. A lot of people are told they CAN’T be broken hearted about “trivial things” or “that happened so long ago.”
You just have to have the guts to face your own truth.
The fact is, Ed, no one reaches heart trouble just because of eating a lot of fatty food and not exercising.
Physical broken heart = emotional broken heart.
If you treat the heart any way but as an emotional being, it’s just going to backfire.
2) Get NATURAL first aid.
When you get natural first aid, you train your heart to be well again. Herbs come with the consciousness of wellness, not the consciousness of “I’m going to kick the bucket soon,” that comes with what I call “dead medicine.”
The heart is all about consciousness, even more sensitive than other parts of the body.
When you have a symptom like heart pain, you want that what you take for it has a positive life and joy supporting consciousness. Every time you take that medicine you want to feel lifted up emotionally. Not like you’re sick.
In fact whatever lifts you up emotionally IS first aid for the heart.
Here are my most favorite herbs for cardiac emergencies.
3) Don’t be penny-wise pound-foolish.
Do the things that make you happy, as a PRIORITY.
Enjoyment and finding pleasure in life are important. What’s the use of all you do to make a living if you don’t have a life?
Again, this often tends to be disastrous to an ‘established’ personality. But you have to choose.
I write this from hard experience. Pleasure and joy are way more healing, for a lot cheaper, than anything you can buy. I’ve wasted a lot of time and money getting what I thought was more important instead of what would’ve made me happy. I regretted it later.
4) Have yourself a Merry little Christmas.
Celebration of anything seems to be going out of fashion. It’s considered “non-essential” you see. But it’s one easy way to healing a broken heart.
Something about being happy about something, about saying, “Today is a special day,” gives the heart something like a massage.
5) Do the Hunter’s Brain stimulation for Heart and Muscle Atrophy
Ed, when you have heart trouble you can’t be as up and about as others. Many people have to start the long journey back to fitness right from lying down in bed.
If you don’t, you’ll just atrophy away, so in whichever way you can you simply have to start moving.
One of my ways of healing was traveling and when I was traveling I’d go days and days without exercise and having to sit and sit and sit.
In those days I learned the power of simple hand and foot exercises to stimulate the metabolism and exercise the heart.
The Hunter’s Brain stimulation is about five points of the body you put pressure on to stimulate the heart and with it, circulation and metabolism.
In short they are – sunlight for your eyes, pressure on the balls of your palms, your heels, the back of your neck and sit on a hard surface and rock on your butt.
The following picture is of me, 8500 above sea level,up in the mountains when I was pregnant. I’d been told I’d never be able to either go up that high OR carry a baby to term.
6) Feel your heart beat.
Ed, this is one of the simplest greatest exercises ever, for anything. You sit still and feel your heart beat.
After a while you become of the vibration that passes out of your heart to the rest of your body, and the return vibration.
You know those situations where you were numb before? When you got taken for a ride? When you got emotionally exploited (again) and you didn’t realize it in the moment? When you liked something or someone but didn’t realize it till much later?
When you do this exercise often enough, you’ll begin to find that your heart is louder to you than before, and in the moment your heart will let you know what your instinct is in the moment. You’ll know what you like and what you don’t.
The heart needs a feeling of safety to be well. We can have that only when we feel like if someone’s going to exploit us, we’ll know in the moment, rather than later.
I used to get lied to all the time, Ed. Being aware of my own heart beat helped me face it in the moment that I was being lied to. Being aware of my heart beat in the moment helped me figure out if someone meant what they were saying or not.
And so very many times, being aware of my heart beat stopped me from doing things – sometimes I realized why and often I never found out – but I consider it wisdom never to go down a path your heart won’t go down with you on.
In the long run, nothing heartless ever works out and is always regretted.
7) The Heart and Poisoning
There are four levels on which a poison could work – Blood, Water, Electric and Consciousness.
Blood and Water poisons are simple enough to understand. You detoxify by drinking enough water, take some liver support, blood cleansing herbs – basically herbs that raise the metabolism and swish the blood around and you’re done.
Electrical and Consciousness level poisons though are on a whole other level.
And this is where the heart comes in.
The heart is the vibration keeper of the body, the motor pump. It’s affected if the electricity of the body is affected, and with it the consciousness or state of being of the body.
It’s like this. If I gave you a beautiful gift, as it touched your hands, as you opened the wrapping, your heart would respond to the electricity of the gift and the consciousness it carries (EVERYTHING carries consciousness Ed, even plastic).
Your heart would beat just a little faster as your fingers opened the wrapping. Before your eyes saw what was in there, your heart would respond to it – either slowing the heart rate, or making it faster, or getting irregular. Maybe even skipping a beat.
With each of these, the blood flows differently in the body, the nervous system frequency changes here and there, and your consciousness too changes to meet the consciousness of the gift in your hands.
That’s real life Ed.
Life affects us. Now imagine if someone gave you something that was nice to look at and was something you liked mentally but while you were opening the package, your heart was like, “No, no, no, I’m being fooled. I’m being distracted. This gift is given to me for a reason other than what it’s supposed to be.”
All those electrical and consciousness patterns also change the body. And those hang about until they get their expression.
That’s what electrical and consciousness poisons are – un-resolved instincts and impulses. We can get them from food that’s not what it’s supposed to be. Think GM food.
We can get them from food and things given to us in deception, things that our spirit is not comfortable with. And we can inherit them too.
These affect our heart and sooner or later our heart becomes tired and feels futile. “Why am I working so hard when I’m ignored. Why don’t I just go numb and stop reacting. What’s the point anyway?”
This is one major cause of Cardio Myopathy or Heart Muscle Degeneration. The doctors will say they don’t know the cause of it, or they say it’s just stress.
But can you imagine what level of stress it takes for a heart to stop giving a damn about reacting to life anymore?
The possibly excruciating but only way out is to start giving respect to our heart again, and our instincts.
There are herbs to help us and they’re described in this article –
7 Angels of Thwarted Passion – Herbs to Change Inherited Energy Patterns